expressing emotions
it’s 4 in the morning. i’m sitting here, jetlagged, with not even the slightest bit of sleepiness. i’m just going to write a bunch of random stuff of how i feel, without pressing backspace.
as much as i bitched about being in the Philippines this past break, i definitely wish i was there now. i guess the main reason is that it was my outlet; my escape from reality. i guess i kinda miss it now.
in a couple of hours i move back to odu. i really hope i can sleep before then.
i basically spent my “last day” in nova sleeping during the day. i slept at 2am and woke up at 4am. at some point i went to the mall, went home and had lunch. Richard texted me and we were gonna have dinner at 7:30, while i was planning on going to church at 5:30. i went to my room at about 4 to take a quick nap, and before i knew it, it was 10pm. my day was done; wasted. from then until like an hour ago i was just packing my bags.
tomorrow starts the spring semester. i figured that at the pace i’m going, i’ll be done with college and graduating fall 2013. that’s just 4 more semesters, hopefully. i think by then i’d go back to the Philippines and visit before getting a job.
right now i feel kind of afraid; afraid that i won’t be able to achieve the personal goals i set out to accomplish by the end of the semester. but right now, i’m determined. i just hope i can keep this determination going.
my birthday is in about 2 months. maybe about 9 weeks. i’ve decided that from now, until then, i’m going to try and hold off on drinking, with the exception of 3 nights. let’s see if i can do this.
this post had no flow what so ever. it’s really hard to write a post without being able to backspace. yup.
i’m going to try and sleep now.
